once i saw death in the eyes of a loved one. it’s a sad memory but the one i don’t want to let go. i had so much pain that my brain decided to erase some memories (they have a scientific definition and explanation for this — selective amnesia) just the happy moments stayed. but that particular night, i remember. i was praying, the 3rd night of my novena. i glanced upon a sad pair of eyes. then i cried, and contrary to my request, prayed that ok, sige na nga, it’s time. the next day, those eyes closed forever.

then it hit me, all along they were waiting for me to let go. i didn’t want to. but i did anyway. 

now, i know my whispers travel faster than light.