I feel awful. My mind is filled with “what if’s” and “should have’s” What if I’ve stopped chatting with my boss for a while. That could have waited even for 5 minutes. I should have held on to Mikee while typing. It was so fast, not even a minute. Mikee was just standing beside me.

Mikee fell off our 16-step stairs yesterday. I heard several thuds while I was running when I heard her first cry. I was wondering why it won’t stop. I thought she just slipped on the way to our room. I even saw her falling down from the 3rd step down to the ground. I froze and shouted several times. But I know no one can hear me. So I ran towards her, she’s still awake and crying. Her lips and hands were bloody.

I panicked and called hubby. All I can say was that Mikee fell off the stairs. When he asked me how, I said goodbye and dropped the call. I was in so much panic that I can’t think straight.

We drove to the nearest hospital (that accepts Mikee’s health card). And informed family and friends (I don’t really remembering who I texted. I just picked people on my phonebook). At the hospital, I can’t even write her name bec I can’t remember. I was asking myself “What’s Mikee’s name?” My hands were shaking. I wasn’t crying but I was really shaking.

Since I just had my x-ray last month, my brother-in-law accompanied Mikee on the X-ray room. She was crying only then that I cried. I was praying, saying sorry for being a bad mother, and to give me another chance at motherhood.

I’m not sure if I was breathing normally for the next minutes. I sort of held my breath before the doctor said that the results are normal. Only then I remember hubby who I’m sure was driving as fast as he can to the hospital. So I texted him to drive carefully and that the results are normal. The doctor gave us a list of watch-outs. So far, Mikee had been acting normal. Dancing, running, talking and shouting. Whew!

But we plan to have her CT-scanned this weekend just to be sure. Please include her in your prayers. Thanks.

I am thinking that it’s time our family travel to China. Maybe sometime this year. I better search the net for Cheap China Hotels. A chinese friend said we could travel as backpackers. She said we could find lots of Cheap Beijing Hotels anyway. I should probably be checking for Cheap Shanghai Hotels too. But if we travel as backpackers, that would mean Mikee should be left here at home. It would be hard for backpackers to travel with a toddler in tow.

I guess we should visit Hongkong first (before any part of China) so Mikee could enjoy Disneyland. I sure hope there are couple of Cheap Hong Kong Hotels to choose from. Not only will I enjoy the rides, I would enjoy taking pictures. Plus shopping for clothes at the night market. Well, let’s see.

I’m a worrier. I worry when a loved one is supposed to arrive at an agreed time but haven’t. If no text messages or call to inform me where he or she is, and I can’t reach his/her mobile phone, I would start to worry.

So don’t you think it would be just cool to install a gps tracking on your family car (or your parents’ car)? You’d always know that they are on their way to your agreed place. No worries.

David Cook! Yup, he’s the new American Idol. I’d say, he deserves to win! And I’m sure his album (once he makes one) will sell.

I won’t promise but I’ll try to do your tags this weekend. So just keep them coming.

Anyway, Mikee had been watching Barney, Dora, Diego, Lazy Town and Hi5 for quite sometime now. So I thought of letting her watch Baby Einstein again today.

I used to watch this while I was pregnant with her. But I somehow knew that she was sleeping. (Mothers know) When she was born, I let her listen (not really watch) it, but after 9 minutes of it, she always fell asleep. Yup, exactly 9 minutes! So at 6 months, I’ve given up on it.

So today, in my attempt to lull her to sleep, I let her watch it. Guess what? She enjoyed it and started dancing to the music. Sheeeesh…

Remember hubby’s aunt who gives Mikee lots of cute Marks & Spencer clothes? She lives in Dublin, Ireland. Mikee, being her first grandchild, is the lucky beneficiary of the frequent sales at the malls near her place.

Hubby and I have considered going to Ireland to apply for jobs. We’ve checked Ireland hotels for our stay. Considering the location of his aunt, we’ve also checked Dublin hotels so we could always visit the aunt during her free time. Plus she would probably want to accompany us to Ireland’s tourist spots.

We would also want to visit other key places. We were advised to check Cork hotels and Shannon hotels too. But first things first, we have to find jobs that match our expertise and experience.

I love blogging. It’s just that I’m swamped with work. Plus Mikee’s yaya is on vacation for 3 weeks. So I’m juggling between work and motherhood. I didn’t even twitter today.

Guess what? I’m still working at this hour! Tsk, tsk.

I’ll just get myself adjusted then I’ll be blogging and bloghop again like crazy. After all, I am bloggerhappy.

We went to a reunion today. It was a 3-hour drive (light traffic) away from our house. And we were so tired. But I enjoyed the scenery.

It was my first time to meet most of hubby’s relatives who attended. They are relatives from the side of hubby’s grandfather. (While we see relatives from the side of the grandmother almost every week. Yes, parties are aplenty.)

Mikee had fun. She played and danced like she wasn’t woken up at four this morning. She especially liked watching the elders play and dance during the games. At 3pm, she finally doze off.

Anyway, that’s it for now. I need to check work that I left, and do some online shopping for Dansko clogs. Yes, I’d like to believe I’m good at multitasking.