class muse

This morning, the parents were oriented at my daughter’s school. They explained to us their method of teaching, progressive, that each child is unique. We were also told of the guidelines such as where to fetch the children, exit signs, parking spaces, and the like. After listening to the teachers, I realized we made the right decision enrolling Mikee there.

I was also told that Mikee’s class has 8 kids. Seven of which are boys!!! My daughter is automatically the class muse! I was shocked because back in her Kindermusik class, they were all girls in the class, so I thought that her generation is composed mostly of girls. Obviously, I was wrong.

As much as I’d love to think of other feminizing activity for my daughter, I can’t. I am still anxious about the school year opening and the work schedule change that I have. I feel so unprepared for Mikee’s school, and I am restless. My mind is racing with questions like “Is she ready for a Monday to Friday commitment?”, “Is she equipped enough?”, “Did we forget to buy something that she needs?” or “AM I READY TO BE A MOM TO A SCHOOL KID?”

PLUS, the work schedule change makes me feel very… uneasy, very much like a new hire. Actually, no, because I was always excited whenever I was the new hire. I am wondering if both my body and mind are ready to start the day early to care for my daughter’s needs (till she comes home from school), and work late in the office and come home late. I feel so tired just thinking about it.

Add to that is the upcoming birthday of the little girl. STRESSSSSSSSSSS….