This weekend, I re-organized our cabinets. I just had to go out with the old, in with the new. I saw my pink ties that we used during a company dance contest and we had to wear the same stuff. I remember dancing with 4 other mommy co-workers then. Geez, I joined two dance contests in my previous job, but I haven’t even dance during any of my current company events.

No, not stage fright. More of my body not wanting to move anymore.

I choose to relax… I choose to relax… I choose to relax.

Geez, it’s Monday again, and first workday of the month is coming. The busiest days are here. Argh! Just thinking about it, gives so much stress.

I initially thought having stress would help me lose the extra pounds. Although that didn’t stop me from reading lipozene reviews. But I read that stress, in fact makes me fat. Not only it makes me want to eat more, stress makes me produce more cortisol.

Cortisol helps in having heightened memory functions (among other good side effects) but is believed to cause weight gain after prolonged exposure to it.

I am not feeling so well. Must be the extreme heat, and then going inside an air conditioned room. That, or it could be the too many late nights. Geez, I better not forget my vitamins I’ve been feeling sluggish the past few days.

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I also suspect that I now need a pair of eyeglasses. Probably polarized ones. Migraine attacks are aplenty. And the bright lights from my laptop and the office are giving me headaches. “Stop complaining and get a pair of glasses!” That’s what’s playing on my head so why not?

“But I’d look old with one.”

No matter how much I’d like to shed these extra pounds, I can’t help giving in to my food cravings. A close friend suggested apidexin but I’m still thinking if I should take or not.

Like if I was successful skipping rice for the entire day, I’d be hungry by night, and the refrigerator inside our room, which is very accessible, has lots of chocolates in it. A bar of Baby Ruth has 280 calories, and a cup of rice only has 200 calories.

This summer, we were able to go on swimming twice. First, we went to the beach when we were in Zambales during holy week. Second, when we went to Momarco resort and enjoyed the pools. It took a toll on my skin and hair. I think my skin got burned a little, but not enough for it to peel. At a closer look, it looks like fish scales.

I’m trying to rejuvenate the skin and a friend suggested this prototype 37c cream for the face. For the body, as much as I would like to put on lotion on my arms and legs everyday, I couldn’t as the weather is too hot lately. So yes, I’d rather have dry skin than have that sticky feeling.

I had a stiff neck that started during the holy week. Two weeks later, I still can’t move my neck without pain. So I thought all I needed was our biweekly massage. And to my surprise, it just got worse. I even cried because of too much pain. I was then told by a friend, that for stiff neck or any extreme back pains, body massage is discouraged. That’s according to her chiropractor.

I took some pain reliever, similar to a joint pain relief and a muscle relaxant. Hot compress did good too. My neck feels fine now. Let it be a tip to you, instead of getting a massage when you have stiff neck, just take muscle relaxant and put hot compress on your neck. It worked for me.

The trouble with working late is that I tend to eat more and move less. I’ve been trying to go on no-rice diet again. I tried eating crackers and just take all natural vitamins to ensure good nutrition.

You see, with our late working hours, lunchtime becomes our breakfast, dinnertime becomes our lunch. And I couldnt’ resist rice just when it’s past midnight! So imagine how much carbo not getting burned. No matter how little I eat during the day, it just gets “balanced” with our dinner. Blame it to Mr. Kabab.

I’m not sure if I had previously admitted this but I now weigh as much as I did when I was pregnant with BG. So yes, I am now 25 pounds heavier than I was few months after our wedding.

I have also accepted the fact that I am now in an age that crash diets just don’t work. So lately I’ve been browsing for hydroxycut reviews hoping to get back to good shape, to my ideal weight.

I know, I know. Some of you might be asking “why don’t you just run or jog, for a change?” Believe me, if only I have the time, I would.

I have been having coffee for breakfast, pasta for lunch, crackers for snack and salad for dinner, and yet, I still keep gaining weight. I am not about to give up as I am inspired by these weight loss stories I read online.

I wanted to keep this diet as part of my lifestyle, with the weekends as my window to eat something that is not crackers, pasta or salad. Sometimes I feel like that I can. But more often, I feel like I want to order everything that I see on the menu. I should just accept that gone are the days that I can simply eat whatever I want how much I want. Oh, age!

I had 3 chocolate mini-bars, 2 cups of coffee, 1 KFC snack box, 1 regular size frozen yogurt and 1 piece of hotdog for the entire day. I think eating those mini-bars defy my no-rice diet. I bet those mini foods were made to make you feel less guilty. Doesn’t matter as I had three, probably equivalent to more than just one big bar.

I still shy away from treadmills and ellipticals. I am too stubborn to do anything physical that isn’t part of what is necessary.

Thus, the bulge.

My face, arms and thighs. Ugh!

How was your Christmas? Mine felt like a pigging out contest!

I must congratulate myself for avoiding rice for the past two weeks. But believe me, I still gained the extra pounds for overeating pasta and cake. I guess since my stomach was so used to being heavy with rice consumption, I sort of always thought I was hungry since my stomach felt light. Or was it from being too tired shopping and carrying all those promotional products for give-aways, that I always wanted to eat after?

Whatever. It’s the holidays so I’m excused. I gave myself freedom to gain 5 pounds max while on vacation.